bittersweet

just came back from training. went on impulse simply because almost snapped today and i knew that if i dint get to touch a vball within 24 hours i might just go mad.

and i had the time of my life. probably one of the happiness nights of my time here in australia. suddenly felt like part of a team again. suddenly felt like i could play on forever. and the girls were so sweet. like, telling me tt i have to continue playing with them even though i cant compete this year coz season's halfway through. and then complaining about their semis on saturday which starts at 10, meaning warmup at 9, meaning no breakfast for kelly. of course, alex took the cake.

alex: is that girl wearing a bra?
-everyone turns to see-
jerry: i am so not turning around.

ya but season's almost up, comp's ending in couple of weeks. maybe i'll continue playing though.

victorian national league. melbourne games. university games.

tough stuff.

oh and i might mention how obviously outclassed i was tonight. because they were all damn tall, thin, and pretty. and extremely zai. and tough. it's been a long time since i played with a team so willing to dive and kiss the floor. and my knee is scrapped and arms are very probably bruised. but i just wanna play on.

bittersweet emotions now.